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Dear best friend,

I never knew we will have such a great time together. In the last 8 months, the only thing I loved about LPU is you.

I know you like small hangouts, late night conversations, talking about childhood and rejoicing your memories. I know you love to sit careless and gag with people in the last bench.

I love those cute laughters, lame fights, sudden plans, pretty lies and beautiful smile. I don’t know about your scars, your memories and all your pain. But just look at us, how far have we come. Don’t stick to the past, because you know nothing lasts forever.

We share secrets, chat whole day and dream about the things which never has a possibility of even happening. We share playlists, we share our tastes of songs, that crave for food every day after classes are over. That is the common thread between us.

I secretly get jealous whenever you have a crush on someone but I know I will be happy if you date someone nice. Although it will hurt me, but I will be happy for you. I know having feelings for someone is not dangerous but expecting the same from that person is quite deadly.

I enjoy every moment with you, I in love with your hairs. Everytime it falls on your forehead, you look more gorgeous. Pramit always tells me to confess my love, I don’t know why he thinks that I love you. I loved you from the moment you helped me first, from the moment you first held my hands. It was nothing romantic for you, but I felt good.

Sometimes I feel that maybe I’m scared to tell you all this. You know, fortunately and unfortunately, we are too perfect. And I cannot ruin our friendship for my own selfish reasons. I know you won’t accept love from anyone right now. I don’t know the exact reason, but if its something related to past then its ok to restart and recreate. Don’t spend time on thinking over yourself that something went wrong. There’s always a second chance. I always feel that you run from love.

I want to live my dreams with you, fantasize them with you. I always had a fantasy to go on a roadtrip someday with someone I love. Wanted to get away from all this chaos and mess. Explore places. Sleep in the car. Stop at random places and admiring the beauty. Feel the wind in my hairs and make memories. I want to see you turn slowly, like they do in movies. I want to witness those spectacles and that beautiful smile.

I will be there with you everytime you need me. If you ever need a friend, you can count on me, there’s always a seat here alongside me. I know I will never tell you or even admit that I love you. But trust me, I love you a little too much. You are one of those major reasons for which I can’t leave LPU because I’m addicted to you.

I’m addicted to your imperfections, your mischievous smile, that blush, your beautiful hairs and your talks.

I hope we could make it a fairytale by infinite care, pinky promises and a lovely journey but all it can’t be more than a dream. An endless dream where you are just an illusion for me with whom I feel in love unknowingly. The problem was I couldn’t stop loving you while you couldn’t even start. I know you would have never expected this from me, but yes I love you!

If someday, it seemed a little too difficult for me, I will just disappear.. But till then, let me see you. Let me fall in love with you everyday.

Your bestfriendzoned lover,

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